Selfish

I am going to be more selfish in 2015.  There, I said it.  Whew!

The dictionary defines selfish as an adjective.

1. devoted to or caring only for oneself; concerned primarily with one'sown interests, benefits, welfare, etc., regardless of others

2. characterized by or manifesting concern or care only for oneself: selfish motives



I have decided that 2015 is the year to implement some new changes and habits in my life.  I will be giving myself permission to try new things, and not give myself a hard time if I fail.  I will continue to help those who need it, but realize that not everyone wants my help, if that's the case I will leave them be. I will take care of my mind and body, in other words... I give myself permission to be "selfish".

Wait a sec, let me explain.  I made a To Do list, looked it over and realized it was all wrong.  Every To Do list has pretty much the same stuff on it.  Dishes, laundry, groceries, cleaning, etc.  I started putting Bike ride or Gym on my lists last year.  I noticed that 9 out of 10 times they were last on the list... a lot of times meaning it didn't get done or there was not enough time and workouts were cut short.  After seeing this trend I realized it needed to stop.

 Over the years I have learned that I am a better Mom, wife, and overall human because I work out.  I am healthy and happy because of my lifestyle. I will not feel bad for going to the Gym, on a run, or on a long bike ride while leaving a To Do list a mile long in my dust.  Not ever.

So, maybe selfish is the wrong word.  I am devoted to caring for myself because  I take care of others. I want to meet my grandbabies and I want to be around for my daughter as she grows up.  That doesn't sound selfish, does it?

Besides, the list still gets done.  Why should it matter if I put myself at the top?
I am more important than clean dishes and no one is going naked yet. You know I'm right.